I got the call on Friday that we got accepted!!! AMAZING!!!! Finally some relief and good news in this crazy journey. Although we won't be starting right away, I can see in the future and it doesn't stress me out anymore because we have a plan and its almost guaranteed! The labs we used are good for six months, so the acceptance is good for six months. I hope to start in that time frame, hopefully sooner rather then later! Now to save $25,000.....anyone have any ideas how we can do that......fast!!!!
Love, Kristen & Eli
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Day 3 Labs
Finally, AF showed up on Saturday, of course when we were camping, but whatever its here! So, yesterday I had Day 3 labs drawn. I was super excited to get everything sent in and wait and hear that I got accepted, until I talked with the nurse today about my labs. The two hormones they check are indicators of ovarian reserve, or in other words how well your ovaries are to stimulate. My FSH level was 5.1 which is under 6 and anything under 6 is considered excellent. However, my Estradiol level was 65, which is concerning. The nurse said its an okay number for them, but isn't sure what Attain's cut off is. The normal range is 25-75 and levels on the lower end tend to be better for stimulating. Levels on the higher end may indicate an existence of a functional cyst or diminished ovarian reserve. My heart dropped after she told me this. We HAVE to get accepted. This is our last chance at anything, we will not pay for cycles one by one without the money back guarantee. Please keep your fingers crossed that Attain will over look that number and base my acceptance on past cycles. We will know in 24-48 hours. This is going to be one LONG wait for us.
Love, Kristen & ELi
Love, Kristen & ELi
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Big Step
We are getting ready to make a BIG step forward in this infertility journey of ours. My husband has decided we can do IVF....THIS YEAR!!! I was speechless when he told me, all I could do was hug and kiss him a million times over. Even though we are ready there are a couple of other things that need to fall into place; we need to save up some money as we want to put at least half down (1/2 way there already!!) and we need to be accepted into the Attain IVF program.
Once we decided on doing IVF, there was NO question that we would do the Attain program. This is a program that offers 6 potential IVF cycles, 3 fresh and 3 frozen with a money back guarantee. You pay the small fee of $21,700 and you are basically guaranteed a baby or you get 100% of your money back. However, its a program you have to be accepted into. So, right now I am currently inducing a period with Provera. As soon as AF arrives I will be getting a baseline ultrasound and will have Day 3 labs drawn. The results of that and all other past cycles will be sent to Attain. They will review it and will let me know within 48 hours if we are accepted or not. Please pray that we are!! I can't see paying for IVF any other way.
My husband and I have also talked about maybe trying just one more cycle of gonadotropins and IUIs.....but we are still undecided. IVF is SO expensive I think we both want to make sure we absolutely have to do it to have our miracle.
I have also been considering making my blog private. There have been some issues with people who read my blog and my facebook. Everything I write on here comes from me, NOT ELI. So if you have any questions about my blog, what you read, what you see etc. CALL ME, NOT ELI. He gets so irritated when people ask him things about the blog or MY facebook. This is our private life and is blogged about for my personal satisfaction and as a way to keep people updated. It is certainly not made for people to gossip about, make judgements about and to be talked about all the time. Please consider this, thank you!
I will update when I hopefully have good news about being accepted! Until then I will wait for AF to make her lovely appearance!
Love, Kristen
Once we decided on doing IVF, there was NO question that we would do the Attain program. This is a program that offers 6 potential IVF cycles, 3 fresh and 3 frozen with a money back guarantee. You pay the small fee of $21,700 and you are basically guaranteed a baby or you get 100% of your money back. However, its a program you have to be accepted into. So, right now I am currently inducing a period with Provera. As soon as AF arrives I will be getting a baseline ultrasound and will have Day 3 labs drawn. The results of that and all other past cycles will be sent to Attain. They will review it and will let me know within 48 hours if we are accepted or not. Please pray that we are!! I can't see paying for IVF any other way.
My husband and I have also talked about maybe trying just one more cycle of gonadotropins and IUIs.....but we are still undecided. IVF is SO expensive I think we both want to make sure we absolutely have to do it to have our miracle.
I have also been considering making my blog private. There have been some issues with people who read my blog and my facebook. Everything I write on here comes from me, NOT ELI. So if you have any questions about my blog, what you read, what you see etc. CALL ME, NOT ELI. He gets so irritated when people ask him things about the blog or MY facebook. This is our private life and is blogged about for my personal satisfaction and as a way to keep people updated. It is certainly not made for people to gossip about, make judgements about and to be talked about all the time. Please consider this, thank you!
I will update when I hopefully have good news about being accepted! Until then I will wait for AF to make her lovely appearance!
Love, Kristen
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Rock Bottom
I have been so strong these last 4 months. Enjoying our break and relaxing, but lately I've hit rock bottom, again. I've cried, exaggerated everyday ailments into a maybe pregnancy symptom, criticized those with children in public under my breath, cried some more, felt bad for myself, gotten mad at my husband for no reason, and yes, cried even more. I don't know what brought all this on, but whatever did I hope it takes it away really soon. This sucks. Feeling this way sucks. I just want to be happy. I want to be the one who has a "I'm pregnant" facebook status, I want to be the one with the big belly, with the monthly ultrasound pictures, I want to be the one to know and find the love of a child, I want this more then anything. But I can't have any of it and it just doesn't' seem fair.
Please pray that this state of mind doesn't last long.
Love, Kristen
Please pray that this state of mind doesn't last long.
Love, Kristen
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Failed Blogger!
I have decided I am a failed blogger. I just can't find the time to update! It seems like every time I sit and decide to write, I get pulled away doing other things! So, I am going to update a lot in this one!
Lets see where to start...
The last weekend in April we went Vegas!! I couldn't rant and rave about it before hand, because it was a surprise for my sister's 30th Birthday. She didn't know we were all going until she got to the airport and we were all waiting there. By all I mean, family and friends, I think there was 14 of us! It was such a great surprise and we had an awesome time! We stayed at the Hard Rock Hotel and partied with many celebrities including, Paris and Nikki Hilton and Lil' Jon! And while we were there I got my first TATTOO!!! It hurt like Hell, but I became addicted and already want another one!!
Lets see where to start...
The last weekend in April we went Vegas!! I couldn't rant and rave about it before hand, because it was a surprise for my sister's 30th Birthday. She didn't know we were all going until she got to the airport and we were all waiting there. By all I mean, family and friends, I think there was 14 of us! It was such a great surprise and we had an awesome time! We stayed at the Hard Rock Hotel and partied with many celebrities including, Paris and Nikki Hilton and Lil' Jon! And while we were there I got my first TATTOO!!! It hurt like Hell, but I became addicted and already want another one!!
Waiting...SO SCARED!!
Tattoo Artist getting ready....
The Outline...marker only....
And he starts....Holding my husband's and brother's hands
Color
I don't have a picture of the finished product...I don't want to take one now because its healing and looks horrible. When it looks healed and stops peeling I will add a picture! I have to give credit to the tattoo artist who did it. He did such an amazing job, it looks like its air brushed on. People have even asked me if it real! I got the tattoo done in our hotel at Hart & Huntington. They are a more famous place, even have their own show!!
And some more good news came out of this Vegas trip. I was relaxing so much that my body decided to do some things on its own and I got a period!! Bad timing while on vacation, but who cares. I did nothing to bring it on, so hopefully it will continue. I was going to start taking my temps, BUT decided against it thanks from the advice from my good friend Amy! I am on a break and I will do NOTHING fertility related on my break. If you start doing things like that, then it just gives you a reminder everyday and you never get away from it. I don't need any reminders, I just need to relax and enjoy this time!
Last week, May 3rd, Eli and I had our 2 year Anniversary! I can't believe it has been two years already. It has gone by so fast! I love you Babe, thanks for everything you do. You are an amazing man and my very best friend. I love you with all of my heart! Hugs & Kisses and Happy Anniversary! I did work on our Anniversary, but came home to 2 dozen roses! I am so lucky!!
Well, that's most of what I wanted to update on! I am still going to try and be a better blogger, but for now I have failed!! Sorry!!
Love,
Kristen
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Consult Appointment
A little update from last Friday:
I had been contemplating over having the ovarian drilling done since the idea was brought up to me. Last week I called Dr. Malo's office and asked if I could get more information on the surgery. The nurse stated that Dr. Malo doesn't perform that type of surgery himself, and that I should talk to my primary doctor. So I called Dr. Baram's office and he said he wanted me to make an appointment with him so we could talk about it, said it was a confusing subject. My appointment with him was last Friday. We went over some of the things I have done and then talked about the future. He said he isn't totally against the surgery and would do it but agrees with Dr. Malo; if we have the money and opportunity to do IVF than do that instead. He said there isn't really much information on the surgery and really no good evidence to back it up. He said they used to do ovarian wedge resections all the time, which is similar, but they don't perform that surgery much anymore because of complications.
I left the appointment with a definite answer about what I would do. No more going back and forth contemplating. I will NOT be having the surgery done. We will just wait until we have the opportunity to do IVF. I feel good about this choice and glad I seen my primary doctor about this and got his opinion.
In the mean time we aren't stopping trying to get pregnant we just aren't doing any treatments, so keep praying for that miracle!
Love, Kristen & Eli
I had been contemplating over having the ovarian drilling done since the idea was brought up to me. Last week I called Dr. Malo's office and asked if I could get more information on the surgery. The nurse stated that Dr. Malo doesn't perform that type of surgery himself, and that I should talk to my primary doctor. So I called Dr. Baram's office and he said he wanted me to make an appointment with him so we could talk about it, said it was a confusing subject. My appointment with him was last Friday. We went over some of the things I have done and then talked about the future. He said he isn't totally against the surgery and would do it but agrees with Dr. Malo; if we have the money and opportunity to do IVF than do that instead. He said there isn't really much information on the surgery and really no good evidence to back it up. He said they used to do ovarian wedge resections all the time, which is similar, but they don't perform that surgery much anymore because of complications.
I left the appointment with a definite answer about what I would do. No more going back and forth contemplating. I will NOT be having the surgery done. We will just wait until we have the opportunity to do IVF. I feel good about this choice and glad I seen my primary doctor about this and got his opinion.
In the mean time we aren't stopping trying to get pregnant we just aren't doing any treatments, so keep praying for that miracle!
Love, Kristen & Eli
Monday, April 12, 2010
Love you Babe!
Thanks for everything you do for me lijah! I love you more that words can say. I thank my lucky stars at night that I have you in my life. You are amazing and I'm so glad you are mine. Love you lots!
Love, your wife
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